I've never tears like these before And though they are the saddest I known Their cause is none but one of joy For now it seems I may not be Upon earth as I have been 'til now A truly unexpected of fate For I had up on everyone Especially myself, and thought it Too late for any to cast a line His hook would hit the ice and in two But someone blew a kiss and with his what ne'er a roaring fire could do An angel now is mine and from the I knew that I was to let him in But while I smile I weep because I That ends so that this can begin God, what a am I, or am I wise? For years have I kept in my heart The name of one who never had more But whom I wrote about and set other men, though never did I tell My feelings, nay, but used him as a An inspiration, something to But rarely did I think on I'd lose If ever my were replaced By someone living, breathing, and real For while I pledged my to him in song The same for me I knew he did not If I tell the truth, I'd say I planned To go on in fashion for all time I didn't care he care for me As long as I own him in each rhyme And have to think about each night When torment after torment wracked my To writhe in sorrow, bathe in pain's To my pages was my only goal Until the day I dared to it love For this love was the only I had And somehow I could the rest away For in my mind I was alone And being thus in love, though a specter, I never did expect, nor wish, nor To another in that holy place in my mind I knew no one was there Yay, in my mind, but not so in my I loved, I I loved, else why this pain of my will I opened up the door And swept the space I swore hed remain And something dies me as I sweep As new is born in every tear Past years of memories I long to A future that I both for and fear There really was no question when it shooting star, both fire and gentleness Who never gave me to make my choice But made my will his own with each For and only once I did not think I should feel and for that I was proud But it was one thing to enact the And something to say the word aloud For once I had, I a shadow fade Which me had hung for all these years And no true loss in all the world could The of someone passing with my tears I hadn't known then how lost I was in this mist of my design So much of me my muse had thus in my eyes no star was seen to shine Unless it some of my phantom's light Or strains of music in the beams my soul was open to the view No man could enter, in my dreams Its now and I am not afraid I know well what I am meant to do But late at night I recall my muse I cry for us as though he ever That I had years to hear my name Once spoken as it should have been Id wait there still but someone real And the heart no man could hope to win If to my muse I'd said hello It might not hurt this to say goodbye But there is tragic in this scene Which may appear as to the eye Of who witnesses myself Bound in the arms and of my new friend Completed in a way I've been And healing wounds I thought never mend The truth that shattered my The soul I dreamed but thought Id meet And now I don't look except in dreams Yet when I do the pain is sweet For only can show me who I was And from that to me how much Ive grown Ive never tasted like these before And yes, they are the saddest I known